Friday, March 30, 2007

Present--A New Life

Well, apparently this isn't taking off, haha. I haven't had the time to post and I have no theme for this next month. Well...maybe change since that's what it will be for me anyway. Hopefully we can find time to make this a nice place to visit. Or at least a place that we can keep in touch.

It seems we're all now farther away from each other than ever! Julia is visiting the Philippines I think, Boo is in California, Lani is in Mexico, Shelly is in Houston and I'm in Pensacola only to be moving to the Philippines all too soon (18 days!) I never thought we'd all be so far away from each other. But we did it! We flew the nest and although it's somewhat sad, it's exciting! We stepped out, cut our ties, and we've become the far-flung missionaries we'd dreamed we'd be. I'm so proud of you all.

It seems to me as if that other life is such a dream. While we lived it, every day was so real and tomorrow was just as clear as yesterday. Now, it seems so hazy with just a memory dotted here and there of good times, hard times, and the best times.

And speaking of change, I'm looking down at my little girl as she flaps her arms and plays on the floor. She's hardly a baby anymore, she's a little girl with a smile that could melt the hardest heart and a totally fun-loving, playful nature. She's changed my whole universe. I'm sure Julia is experiencing the same thing. You other girls I'm sure don't mind waiting, ha, but when you have yours too I'll be so happy for you, although I'm sure you'll be much happier for yourself. Children are amazing.

I guess this post is me saying "I'll miss you!" Yeah, I'm moving across the globe, a good hemisphere away. It seems hard to imagine but on the 17th of April me and my little family will be on the literal wings of change. I think a real epoch of my life will draw to a close as we emerge through the tops of the highest clouds to witness our last sunset in America. I'll probably cry way too much. Because it's not just the end of a part of my life where it was "the Tennessee girls" but it's the end of so much of my life. It's like the end of my childhood, my teen years, and the beginning of my adult one. No more match meetings, no more Wordstock, no more Houston, no more get-togethers, no more "us four girls" (me, Tina, Liz, and Stephy), no more South Home. No more any part of my life that I'm familiar with. Just my husband, my baby and the Lord to hold my hand and fly with me to the beginning of my new life.

That said, I'll miss you all. I'll miss every last one of my friends, aquaintances, old home members, and bosom buddies. I know I'll see you again sometime. I'll try and be brave until the Lord says when.

Posted by Living My Fairytale @ 2:39 PM